Falling Fears
Fall, the beauty of this single word far surpasses the meaning that a human mind can gauge. In different contexts, it gives different emotions, different feelings, and different attitudes all in just a single word. Don’t believe me, think yourself.
A waterfall, this word holds calmness, on the view of which each and every tumbling human emotion just gets silent, as the experience deepens that very noise turns into a symphony for our ears. The warm droplets falling on water, breaking the water and becoming one with it, make our thoughts melt away and just as the water is broken to accept the drop, that very experience breaks the tensed thoughts that our mind got wrapped in, in fear of what, falling.
But how come on the thought of one fall, our mind gets filled with the thoughts of beauty and calmness but on the thought of another type of fall our mood suddenly turns pensive, or sour or you will guess the rest. Some of us might have already guessed it, it’s the thought of our own downfall.
But how come in this context this word is capable of wreaking havoc on one’s mindset? Especially when the water in a waterfall is falling downwards. That’s because once this thought is seeded in our mind, it makes us reach some half-cooked conclusions, of what if, how come, and so on, and so forth.
This, in turn, fuels the fire of self-doubt, now self-doubt is a really interesting emotion. It can either turn into a rabbit hole that goes on to become darker and darker as you fall, or it can be a cave that can be crossed with the torch of retrospection. But is it that easy to choose, to retrospect while in self-doubt, not as easy as it sounds right?
But what if I tell you that every one of us automatically goes into retrospection when in self-doubt but one single/simple behavior destroys it, i.e., to see how good or capable we are, we start comparing our growth, progress, mindset, power, etc with someone whom we either ‘admire’, or get jealous of, in any case, it leads to the destruction of the positivity and focus in oneself. Which results in the deep seeding insecurities of “Am I good enough for this or that”? So drastically a known fear grips us, fear of failure or in other words downfall of oneself.
I am sure we all have heard of the saying, “comparing apples and oranges”, which means comparing two things that aren’t meant to be compared. We all are apples to someone’s eye for sure 😛, we all are unique in our own ways. Working, learning, struggling, hustling, surviving, and doing what not to be the perfect version of ourselves, but in that race if we end up being just a tool to compare with or to be compared with, then none of us are doing justification to ourselves.
We as humans always tend to avoid uncomfortable situations, while some of individuals have won over this trait, whose reward is confidence. Whereas most of us are still struggling to develop that trait.
Whatever answers we need are already in front of us or known by us, but sometimes the ways to those answers are uncomfortable and the reality to those answers is rather unpleasing, so we deflect from the way which may give us answers, but just like the water falling from the top will definitely reach the ground, we will face the truth of those answers no matter what. There would just be a small difference if we accepted the reality regardless of how uncomforting it is then there’s nothing that can create self-doubts, but if reality confronts you, then I am sure we all know that “reality hits hard”.
Now what meaning of fall you want in your life is on you.
